I made it through my lecture and reading in one piece. Both actually went pretty well. My lecture generated a good amount of discussion, and my reading got positive reviews, which is great for my positive energy moving forward.
It's just so hard to be done. I know it's not the end of me and VCFA, and I know it's not the end for me and my amazing class, but it's still hard. There's a certain kind of emptiness that will be hard to fight through. I only know how to do it one way: by writing. I need to write my way through the feelings.
I need to write my book. I need to continue this writing journey.