Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Wolf Moon

It's happens every January, and it makes me feel alive every time I see it. There's just something about it hanging there, bigger than it normally appears, shining down on me. It almost pulses with energy. I stared at it for quite a while this time, trying to suck in some of its energy. I figure if I store up enough, I can use some to fuel my writing on those nights when I'm running on fumes. It's free, too. Amazing!

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Challenges are fun?

Yes. Yes they are. We need challenges. I need challenges. It's a good thing, too, because I'm facing so many of them right now. Post-MFA life has barely begun, and the weight of it all is crushing parts of me. I have to keep writing. That's one thing I have control over. I need to keep chipping away at my book. I need to keep creating and thinking and revising. All of the other stuff is out of my control. I just have to keep writing and believe that everything will work out. Things will happen. The weight will lessen with time. Stuff will work out.

I'm a good writer. I just need to keep believing that. And VCFA didn't just vanish. It's still there. My people are still there --  here -- holding me up from behind the scenes. I'm ready for all of this. I can do all of this. I really can.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

MFA

I graduated from Vermont College of Fine Arts. I am a Master of Fine Arts. In writing!

I made it through my lecture and reading in one piece. Both actually went pretty well. My lecture generated a good amount of discussion, and my reading got positive reviews, which is great for my positive energy moving forward. 

It's just so hard to be done. I know it's not the end of me and VCFA, and I know it's not the end for me and my amazing class, but it's still hard. There's a certain kind of emptiness that will be hard to fight through. I only know how to do it one way: by writing. I need to write my way through the feelings.

I need to write my book. I need to continue this writing journey.